It has been almost 6 months since my last post not that anyone is counting but this is a place for me to talk stuff usually no one cares about so i don’t even check the grammar and post the first draft😂
I was thinking alot borderline overthinking and yet found no a answer i get the opposite of what I want. Ex: i find a frnd i want that frndship to grow but instead it crash and burns .
It happens everything i want something and baam the opposite is like playing the opposite day everyday send it’s frustrating. Sometimes I feel i don’t deserve it so i go with logical answers statistics and stuff… But those stuff also proves i was right but no way to stop except prayers which won’t work.
I see all the bad ppl grow but i am stuck may be I am the bad guy and i am getting a punishment for doing wrong may be I deserve to be alone without frnds send no one cares
I started this as a means to stabilize my mind but not sure it’s working
I read that prayers which go wrong means i am praying for wrong thing or this is preparing me for something big unless it’s a apocalypse i am not sure what else will crash so badly.
I want to go to the void and stare and empty and i bet the empty will also leave me🤣
To those souls who was so bored in life to read it till her ty now don’t be like me and look at your life…..
Let’s hope i get what i deserve because i am not sure how much of this i can take it anymore:(
Visoria 